Wednesday, June 29, 2005

things dont feel the same

today was another average day. nothn special cept we had free period today.
was late for school, tho no late pass today. finally learnt locus in maths.

whole day was bludge, no work done really. not really much fun today either =/
school in 3 words was boring, boring n sleepy. yes thats how crap it was today.

also over time it feels like im losing friends n things dont feel the same arnd any1 anymore.
hardly talk to much ppl any more. usually alone or with jackson =/ very few ppl left that still want to talk, evry1 else seems hesitant or jus plain uninterested. evn anton when talkn abt wow =/ its probly jus me but man i wish i could go back in time 1 month, evn if i have relive all those assessments again. o well ppl change, thats life.

Tuesday, June 28, 2005

omg

well today was a normal cold day, not too bad, not too great.

had normal periods, average day, quite boring actually. cant remember what i had for first two, i think english n sumthn. anton wasnt here today, dont know y (lots of wow for u today =/)

assembly whole school was standing coz so wet. recess was normal, went with jackson to office for his train form n school change form for his cousin. then bought sum sushi to support harry lam n other jap ppls. (notetoself:1 chicken sushi roll, must remembr for thursday)

3rd n 4th phys, a bludge. eco more bludge, first time i didnt have to take out my book for eco. jus spoke all lesson. during eco it was pouring. i love rain. i love lots of rain. but it was only for 5 mins =(.

lunch was cool coz it was long. went arnd random areas then finally gym. watched bball gang play pro, billy play with soccer ball, sum yr 10 girls n yr 12 guy play volley ball, year 9/10 vs a yr 12 guy and some more soccer. yes all in the one gym. jackson tried to kick the ball n it kinda went in i spose =]

at arnd 1:30 we left for accounting coz we start 30 mins later today n finished 30 mins early (2-5 for today) tafe break was pretty fun. played a picture game on white board with king jasper sum girl n billy (the picture drawer). was all tie n then i think sum1 took the lead. billys pictures were very deceptive because they looked like other things. on way to statn me n billy had extremely funny talk, couldnt stop laughing. then on way home from lidcombe statn sum crap happend. two leb guys tried to roll me, after abt 5 mins another leb guy came past us n told em to stop. felt so bad like bashing em, luckily im all fine, dont feel hurt or nothn lost or broken.

o well oc on tonite =)

Monday, June 27, 2005

jacksons departure

well today was a very stressful n sick/cold day. only good thing of today was software n it was in a theory room =/ recess dedicated to eco, managed to learn sum but in the test on 4th period i failed miserably...neva used so many tissues in one test, practically got 1 from evry1 inc the teacher =] lunch was studyn for maths obviously, n was verry confident due to studyn on saturday (wendys house) n sunday (my house) n today (library) so ye but man when the test came 2 periods later, it was :, practically froze on the first few questions askn to find the equation n D co ordinates or sumthn... = = we ended up stayn back another 2 mins coz techaer came late n so when we finished the school was empty. got to statn to find all was empty.

on train to tipps we came across nat,wendy n lol cant remember last person, XP, but ye 3 girls got on. nat didnt sit down (no idea y) n she got off at homebush. other girl i think it was donna goto ff later at flemington. for the rest of the trip we talked abt stuff, concerning skirts n 10c coins. jackson "accidentally" dropped a 10c coin n was abt to pick it up when i reminded him wendy was wearing a skirt n was sittin directly opposite him, haha XD. nect cpl of statns constant debate on skirts n picking up etc. dont know what happened to the 10c but got off at yagoona for tipps.

tipps = boring hard n long, learnt sum auxiliary angle crap, each question takes half a page = =
waitd for abt half an hour in cold for dad to come.

when arrived home jackson n his mum n uncle where already there. went up n jackson collected his stuff. talked abt how he could come over n sleep over anytime (so now he will leave some clothes here jus incase, ithink) uncle was tryn to play on electric keyboard while my grandma plays on piano. was very weird. grandma ended up playing all these songs = =. then we sed our goodbyes to jackson. jackson departs =(


tissues used [>50]
times sniffed [>300]
dry cut lip [abt 1.5 weeks]

Saturday, June 25, 2005

uninstalled

i never thought i would ever do this but i have

today i uninstalled all games on my comp including wow. yep thats rite all gone all uninstalled all deleted. comp feels so empty now but i guess its for the best. weird thing is i dont feel the urge to play at all, wonder y

Friday, June 24, 2005

worse than yesterday

today was a bad day from the very beginning =(
woke up late with a sore throat, n with a temperature. felt like i had a fever or sumthn. this week has been long n cold, very cold. brought cds for matts bday on the weekend, happy bday 17th bday man (sorry cant make it >< ). first two periods was maths, read some magazine with jackson for two periods while doing maths, taught jackson sum stuff =] (hope he does well on monday) recess was a blur, i jus remember shivering n avoiding the rain.

cant remember what was in the middle of the day just that my throat got much more worse n couldnt see properly. felt like sleepn. then came lunch i think evry1 was in the library keeping warm n studying for maths. joined in to revise sum basic formulas, lol tried to show them the k method for intersection but got messy = =.

eco was a bludge also i cant remember who but sum1 gave me a cough lolly n after my throat felt better. then last was chem n we got like 5 sheets for next week coz ms eastment sed she wont b here next week so we have to work at our own pace or sumthn. was raining on way to statn, got a headache on the train n slept when i got home. this week is finally over, coz it was a long cold one...

Thursday, June 23, 2005

cold day

jus want to say how much of a jerk i have been. not knowing what i have been doing these past cpl of days, not thinking not being me. i hate my self totally for the things i have done n wish i never acted the way i did. just want to let u know it is my fault not urs, me being stupd, i'm sorry.

today was report day, aka judgement day, nothn good came out of today. waited long in the cold for the interview then wasted another period in there writing crap.

then stressn over chem in the library coz i didnt feel well the nite b4 n slept at 6. managed to get chem over b done with, i stuffed it so bad...lunch got evn mroe boring n cold.

then was english, more boring stuff. then sd sposedely best period of the day, but felt like shit wheni got there coz i knew it was my own fault not urs. ended with cold cold walk to the statn. went tutor n couldnt do the questns coz i hadnt kept up with hwk coz i slept early the nite b4.
day was bad.

Sunday, June 19, 2005

i will remember this day

i will remember this day, theres a first for evrything, tonite i sed sumthn stupd, i was stupd and am still. XD

i sed it, i am jus stupd

i am stupd, i dont know anymore, life seems odd, what i sed i meant

=(

Saturday, June 18, 2005

jay chou =]

after so many years of influence i have finally heard jay chou properly n i love it =]
jackson helps with the translation but u dont evn need translation to understand the song. the mood jus flows so right =]. i'm starting to sound gay now but i guess its jus the songs. where have i been all this time...

currently into:

Jie Kou, Excuse
Qing Tian, Sunny Day/Cloudless Day


"ye xu ni yi jing fang qi wo / ye su yi jing hen nan hui tou
Perhaps you have already given up on me, perhaps it is already very difficult to turn back"
=(

Thursday, June 16, 2005

nite out to sghs

today me chris jackson henry n wallace set out to go to sghs for chris's friend play performance. =] =]
after finishing phys test we got on the train n talked abt how good today was gonna b. henry was deciding where to get off either my place or chris's, while wallace was already coming over my house. arrived home and got changed n had sum lunch coz we were all hungry. we all used paper plates n cups coz cbb to wash dishes later =]. after a bit of msning/lf2/breakdance n wow videos we decided to run to the station coz chris told us he was gonna b there at 6 n we over played a bit of lf2. on the way there bought the tickets for wallace n jackson adding up to $11.20 =.= (lady woudlnt believe i was concession, o well) the train was packed with all these football ppl, apparently state of origin was 0n tonite , so boring. on the train we non stopped laughed n talked abt what would happen tonite, one of the best parts of teh nite. we got off at central n bought a 10 use bus ticket thing n got to the bus stop just on time. we were relying on jacksons friend knowledge of how to get to sghs when we finally got there we got off a stop too late n hyad to cross a major intersection. we all ran crazi;y across the road while henry was laughing with joy n chris panicking bhind =]. we got there n the school was SO CLEAN N NEAT. sghs makes fort look like crap ><. they got a monument thingo. the ground is spotless and the walls and evrything is clean clean clean. it proves that girls are way neater than boys, by far! crazy. anyways after 40 mins of looking for the hall we found the door way in n had to pay a mandatory $5 donation =.= chris was happy yet shy i spose n we all waited in line till 7:30. henry n jacksons tutor friends arrived n they all sed hi n stuff. we got in n sat at the top back row, with cool cumfy cushion seats, but had no back rests so for the first act our backs were Aching! we moved to the front with proper chairs but all moved to the side to see properly. the play was called "bernada the alba" or sumthn sum very very serious play n was very boring. we were dying of boredom for abt 80% of it until the last end bits where it got better. chris was looking out for heidi, his pre uni friend n seemed happy =]. at the end we all cheered it ended so good n chris n heidi had a quick talk. chris seemd shy-ish n wanted to go but we forced him to stay but he ended up going back out into the entrance. jackson n henry talked a bit mroe to their tutor friends n we asked her to tell heidi that chris "really enjoyed the show" chris was kinda ngry but in a nice way that we were doing all these things (sorry chris) i think we pushed him to much ><. oh well now chris wants to be more friends with her i think but we left soon at arnmd 9:30. walked to the bus stop n waited 4eva, ended up runing to next bus stop n wait for bus there to find we jus missed it coz of me = ( hehe oops. got to central n sed bye to henry coz his parents were going to pick him up in city. was super tired n fell asleep on train. woke up at lid n got off with mum waitn there. wallace n jackson were hungry so we all went thru mcdonalds drive thru. drove wallace home then we arrived back home. got changed, showered n brushed teeth n now blogging. very long day n now i must sleep ^o^

this long blog should make up for all those quick blogs =]

Tuesday, June 14, 2005

..i'm so stupd

(lol bethany its k if u r lost atm =P)
as the title says, i am so stupd

1. probly stuffed up tafe test
2. physics cant believe it took me so long to do 100 word summaries3. yes. i cant believe i actually sed that. i dunno it jus slipped. so stupd of me. its k u think i'm ghey or sumthn now, i deserve that. = (

u dont have to be so nice. evn tho u r =]

Sunday, June 12, 2005

it was perfect. then it was gone

u know who u r =]
u know what happened today. its sunday. now u should know. outside showers.
it was perfect then it was gone. dw if u dont know what i'm on abt.




also: i will join wushu "someday"

Wednesday, June 08, 2005

things happen

i only blog now when its important i guess or remember.

lots of work n stuff has happenend. jackson is staying over now n that is cool. work is piling up as usual. n nobody probly checks this page anymore. what else isthere? o ye sum other stuff but ye dont want to go nto much dtail. nvm if u dont know whta i am talkn abt. u know